A few weeks before he died I wrote this lot below - written when I hoped for a miracle, written when I could still hold his warm body, ruffle his silky fur, kiss him behind his ears, hold his front paws in my hands while he curled his fingers around mine. His body has died but he has’nt left me.
” My lovely cat is ill - he has cancer in both his kidneys - commonly known as renal lymphoma.
My little boy lost his voice - it came back as a squeak which grew to a croak - better than nothing.
He has had chemotherapy injections, lots of strength building tablets, and a quarter of a chemo tablet every 3 days which makes him dribble & foam at the mouth until I found a special veterinary treat to wrap it in.
There is little point in going into deep details about his treatment - easy enough for you to find this information online - just type in Feline Renal Lymphoma & you’ll find lots of information about it.
Financial information for UK owners: you take your kit-kat to the vet because he or she is suddenly drinking buckets of water, throwing up & losing weight. The vet keeps your baby in the hospital for a few days while doing tests - and the bill comes to around £250.
The vet is kind enough to estimate that further treatment with chemotherapy is going to cost you around £80 a week, and the special food for your cat, Hills KD costs £10.50 per 12 tins (my cat ate 2 of these a day at the beginning) or Royal Canin 100 gram pouches at 50p each. Treatment of some type will continue for the rest of Roger’s life.
The distressing part is when you need to get food into your cat & he refuses to eat, turns the back to you or just walks out the room as though you’re wasting his time. I realised that Roger does’nt appear to be able to smell his food properly, but trusts me enough to sniff very closely what I have on my hand. A bit messy (and very smelly - you need to wash with soap & water) but he will eat quite a lot from my hand. I mince up his food and mix in a little water - I think he does’nt like to chew and prefers just to lap up his food. ”